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JENKEY!!! you are gorgeous!! -stares at jenkey's gorgeousness-
dude. if you had a cam and put a wishlist up, you'd be one rich ho. IM SERIOUS DOOD.
go look at jenkey. she's a sexy bitch <3 <3 <3

<3new layout<3
i really like this one. so uh. get used it, it'll be around for awhile. <3
and my live cam software died. ;/ nomore live cam. and i have a new layout type thingy for my cam.
nifty, n'est pas?

damn.
me and my parents had a big argument at dinner today. it was fine until my dad and me were playing games, and when he grabbed my finger. my mom was like "OH MY GOD ERIN LOOK HOW PALE YOU ARE" and it just got worse from there. basically i was insulted from all sides about how i spend too much time on the computer, how pale i am, i'm going to get fat, etc etc. all while i was cleaning up their goddamned kitchen. eventually i got so frustrated i said "can't you just shut up and let me clean your kitchen" and started crying. mom was like "okay, okay, you can go to your room if you want". so i got up there, crying my eyes out, just sitting on my bed holding my pillow. i turned on my cds and played it louder cause i couldn't hear it over my mom laughing at someone on the phone. i just kept thinking over what my parents said. i threw all my picture frames on the ground and i tore up all my posters and a card i'd saved from when they'd sent me it when i was at kiras house. i sat down on the bed and clutched the pillow again. it was all like.. a blurr. eventually mom got the guts to come apologize and when she walked in she was like "oh, my god" because, well, most people know, i'm pretty much a good girl. she must've thought i was a nutcase when she saw everything. then we started talking about parents etc etc and how my mom realized that they were being assholes and i should be able to be who i want, and their "discipline is for my own good". eventually i was just like okay, lets go. cause we had to bring matt his sleeping bag and pillow for the party he was going to. then we went to kroger, etc. got some ice cream etc. came home etc. yeah.
x_x

hai.

man, i get the weirdest referrals from search engines.
there was one from yahoo, where someone was searching for "port huron tattoo" and one from google for someone looking for "cartoon torture". o_0 weird freaks!!! <3 <3 welcome to my website <3 <3

today was amusing. i went to the library at 12:30 to hear this paul polland guy talk and play some of his songs for us. his music reminded me of john cougar mellancamp (sp?). that was cool. then we got pizza up the w4z00. <3 <3 gotta love geeta, she orders like...12 pizzas for 20 people. and pepsi, too <3 <3. so that was lunch. :D annnd uhh what else.., oh yuh. after that me and mom went to bath and body works and claires and i got a necklace.

isn't it leet?? <3
yeah. then i got home. and my incubus cd was done burning. <3 <3 incubus r00ls. anywhoo. and i got a bot thingy for my waterdawl screenname. much fun. :F and. scanners suck, but pencils = <3

w000000t
i was scrounging around on the skool website and i found pictures of john, SKI TRIP PICTURESSS <3 <3, and "sthpirit day picturesth".

john
ski trip 1
" " 2
" " 3
spirit day

evil of all evils!!!

my scanner decides to crap out the instant i need to scan important material.
...like, manda dancing with p.t.!!!
it seems manda has power over my scanner. o_0 hmm. well. 'soon as i get the scanner up and running...some juicy pictures will be coming soon <3

yaiyaiyai
went to a pet store in circleville. they have alot cheaper pet supplies. CHILLICOTHE MAKES YOU PAY OUT THE ASS. don't buy pet supplies in chillicothe lmao its a rip off. yeah. o_0 anywhoo.
we bought guinea pig stuffs in circleville at like 10. matt woke me up at 9 in the morning to go. x_x jeebus. the kids a little excitable. yeah so. we buy pet supplies there. then we drive on over to lancaster and i found a c00000t guinea pig. i named her moira. <3 matt didn't see one he liked, so we drove on back to chillicothe and he got one there. "pumpkin". psh. wuss name. but anwyays. as soon as moira gets used to living here (she was scared as hell when we brought her home), i'll be taking some picturessss <3 <3 moira cam. yei. um. then i had to go volunteer at the library from 2 to 4. john signed up but he didn't show. i'll have to talk to the bitch later o_0 i was stuck with julie for 2 hours. x_x it wasn't so bad, i suppose. 2 more sessions then i'm outta there.
and yeah. earlier i was at an atheist vs christians debate chat room. it was hilarious. chekkit:

yeah. o_0
aaand. i might be going to mandas friday! :D :D i haven't seen her in a couple weeks. time to catch up on kingston. yeehaw.
<3

yay another day of summer vacation.
...hah.
i go to volunteer at the library at 1:30. i should think the way nate does. he's always like, "the karma fairy always repays" or something like that. -shrug- julie and matt will probably pester me about my "crush" on john. john's a cool kid and all, but i don't have a crush on him. so. o_0 stupid kids. -grunt- uh. yeah. then at 5 i go babysit the beam kids. i really do wish i had a portable cd player that worked. i'm burning incubus cds today <3 cos whenever i'm not on the computer listening to them, i'm humming them around the house and being really annoying.
speaking of annoying, i can barely brush my teeth they hurt so much. -cries- well, acetomenaphen is good to me. i can't find the ibuprofen, lol. whatever.
what's really worrying me is this black nail polish smear on my desk. WOODEN desk, mind you. there were a couple tiny spots of nail polish on them, cos i was painting my nails yesterday. so i take a q-tip with nailpolish remover on it and try to wipe the spots away. the MOTHERFUCKERS SMEAR and make this huge black stain on the desk. heheh. it's a good thing my mom doesn't come down here very often, because she has a thing about getting stains on wooden furniture. i've already gotten a stain on her fancy wooden table and one of the chairs. lol. so i'm just sticking my makeup bag on top of it. hopefully she won't notice in the next 3 years.
by then i'll be in college <3 but anywhoos. i wake up and i get my acetomenaphen and plop down on the couch. mom's watching court tv. something about this 7 year old girl that was kidnapped and killed. i forget the names. but my mom was like "i read something in the paper that's saying the teen work force is dwindling. kids are going to different jobs and getting work experience for later in life." i roll my eyes at 'dwindling' and 'jobs' "what's yer point mom.". and my mom was like "i think you should start looking into something besides this babysitting, because i know how you hate it." so to humor my mom i made a big deal about getting the newspaper and looking for a job. (i found 4, one was a word processing thingy and it looked ok, but i didn't tell my mom that.) the weird thing was last night justin was showing me his resume! gbwahaha justin hasta get a job. <3 anywhoos. i better get started on burning that cd cos i won't have time later...-cries- uh. lol.

justin meddaugh is a mofo.
you may contact him and tell him so in the following ways:
email: meddaugj@union.edu or meddaugh@attbi.com (i dont know which one works or doesnt, email both <3)
aol screenname:Parting Visions
yahoo screenname: luxor_malenkov
justin, yer a lucky little ho. i lost your phone number.
and heres the little message that's worth posting twice:
i would just like to say that justin is an extreme bitch. however, i know that i can't get back at him because he is an enormous bitch and doesn't say anything remotely funny. o_0 and. if only i could show you what the cam whore was doing while i was putting my rubber bands on my braces, it would be very nice blackmail. unfortunatley, "my hands were busy." >:/


anyways. normal update. teehee.
went to the dentist, allergist, and orthodontist today. o_0 yey. absoluteley no cavities, and i got purple bands on my braces. and i got rubber bands. mom hasn't told me how to shoot them out of my mouth with my tounge yet, but "i'll figure it out eventually." we also went to the pet store and found out that it's going to cost me and matt about 80 bucks to get 2 guinea pigs and supplies. so we're going to buy them next weekend <3 i dunno what to name mine yet. any suggestions?
and tomorrow. beam-y called and she wants me to babysit the brats tomorrow from 5 to 10 or 11. jesus. i have library volunteering from 2 - 4. x_x no quality computer comunion time for me. -sigh- and my brother was working at the library while i was gone. julie's there every day, so i guess the two talked. it seems that julie thinks i have a crush on john. i have one thing to say:
JOHN I WANT YOU NOW UNF UNF UNF
thank you for your time.
<3

hahahahaha
i was looking at places that referred my website...and someone was looking up "why is tapioca pudding bumpy" on google and my site came up. lmao. interesting.

i'm home i'm home i'm hoooooomeee <3
how i missed my beloved computer. im such a geek <3 anywhoos. recent stuff.
uh uh. it seems that i may be getting a guinea pig soon! my brother wanted to get one and he's gonna get the whole cage and everything, so i was like hey! i want one too. so now i'm going to help pay for all the food n stuff and i'll get my own cuddly guinea pig<3 soon. <3 gwah. what else.OH
WE HAD PASTIES FER DINNER!! :D :D :D
mom n dad bought them on mackinaw island before they drove down to pick me n matt up from our friends houses. speaking of friends. kiersten gave me this cuuuuuutie as an early birthday present

thanks kiersten<3
and and friday i went to nicks house! w00t my first time to a guys house. hes forking RICH y0. he had a pool and a hot tub and a volleyball sand-area thingy and a big house. twas cool. K IT WASNT JUST ME, it was kira and megan too. megan's head over heels in love with him. and he's in love with her boobs. -shakes head- the poor girl. soon she'll learn. DONT GET CRUSHES ON CLASS CLOWNS KTHNX. tis a baaaad idea. -bleats-
dude. practically all of these face the jury.com people are..phony. -gags- "ChArMeR4u"? o_0 kids these days. tch.

ahoy thar mateysss
i finally assumed control over kira's computer. so much to talk about while she's in the shower. hm hm hm. no cam for y'all, sorry. anyways, lets talk about my trip.
it was kind of boring. and it was really weird seeing kira drive the car. since i can't get my permit till january cos of stupid ohio laws. yeah. we went through kentucky, tenesse, indiana, and back up to michigan. lots of pictures soon as i get 'em developed. which will be soon <3 but anyways. KALAMAZOOOO <3 glow bowling. kicks. ass. yeah. they had little smoke machines and dance music and everything. it was cool. we also drove by my house when we dropped kiersten off from the sleepover we had yesterday night. saw my house. it was really weird seeing someone elses' hose and sprinkler in the yard. and weird seeing someone elses flag in the spot where ours used to be. their flag didn't look as good. it was the old-looking brownish kind. -shrug- it was really strange. i still felt like i was at home there. -sniff- anywhoo. i made some really cool collages. = scans when i get home. i get home on the 23rd. yei! :D

yaiiiii well erins getting a life and going on a trip!! :D :D so. be back in 2 weeks? or something. lol bye <3

i have so much shit i have to do, and i'm fuckin...sitting here on the computer listening to music. x_x i have to pack. and if you're a girl, you can understand my dilemma. then, kira's coming tomorrow, so i have to clean up the whole fucking house before 7 o'clock tomorrow. and also tomorrow, i have a babysitting job. and i have to take a shower. ugugug. i guess i better get started...

insecure
i have too many questions
about myself
they don't shut up
won't go away
how can you not see it
you look at my face
and see only that
you must realize there's
much more
to be had and given
do you care
won't you help
i could bear this insecurity
if i had you


yeah, i just wrote that. sitting here at the computer. a minute ago i was looking at bitch-off.net and i saw her writings. i was like, whoa. it inspired me to write better and post it here. i dunno. i've written alot of things about insecurity but looked at them later and cringed. needless to say, i won't post those. but i like this one.

loving you is a like a song I replay/
every three minutes and thirty seconds of every day /
and every chorus was written for us to recite /
every beautiful melody of devotion every night /
it's potion like this ocean that might carry me/
in a wave of emotion to ask you to marry me/
and every word, every second, and every third/
expresses the happiness more clearly than ever heard/


that was lauryn's rap <3 in turn your lights down low. download it! :D

well. the volunteer work last night wasn't so bad. i mean, john came with me! :D yey john. that was fun. there was all sorts anklebiting little kids. bwahha. i memorized all of the instructions. john's a slow kid. lol. hmm. kira's coming on fridayyyyyyy!!! <3 and today is wednesdayyyy.
2 days. to clean up and pack.
hmmm. i prolly shouldn't be vegetating on the computer. but talking with nate has been fun.
and wottt else. d0o0dot0odt0odt. um. notheeng. i think its time to play black and white. more screen shots soon <3

unf. work tomorrow.
i have to wake up to babysit at 8:45 am. till noon. then at 6 i have to go volunteer at the library. -_- suckage.
yeah anyawysssss today i mowed the whole lawn! it was my first time lmao. and i got a forking sunburn. i yam pain.
uhm uhm what else. notheeng? oh yeah. we went to the bank and i withdrew money for my trip w/kira. <3100<3 dollars in 20's, bayybeeeh!! :D :D money = good. and. uh. black and white screenshots<3
booga
cheese

here's some screen shots of black and white, as promised.
i had to restart the tutorial so they're not too exciting yet.
here's my creature. creature's do the goddess' (me) work. :D
silver reward scroll. they wanted to leave. lmao, you should've heard the music they were playing.
we want wood!
we want grain!
we want meat!

they sailed off and were happy. the only thing i'm worried about right now is my creature's picked up one of the villagers and got stuck. i can't connect my leash to him or zoom in on him or anything. dammit. x_x

so it seems matt has pneumonia. (sp?)
yeah. they all came back from the ER this MORNING at like..6:30. i woke up from my grandma clunking around in her bathroom. i asked her what all went on and she told me that matt had pneumonia, had a fever, and was dehydrated. yeah. x_x poor kid. he's been through a lot. i guess we'll be going home a little later than expected. i mean, its already 1:02 and dad's still at meijers getting matt's prescription. i think when he gets home we'll leave.
hmmn.

damn. it's 1:16 in the morning already. lotsss to talk about.
i woke up around 9 this morning to the sounds of my brother taking a shower (hallelujia!!). dad was yelling across the condo to grandma that we were going to best buy in 10 minutes. AAHJSDHSKJDFHKSJHKJH! bestbuy. its been since xmas since i've gone to that store. (chillicothe ohio, remember. x_x yeah.) but anyways. i ran through my morning routine and told dad i was coming with. i took about 20 more minutes to put my makeup on and as i was putting on my purse, grandma offered me some coffee cake and matt was walking up the pathway to undoubtedly bitch at me for taking so long. 2 decisions here. i walked out the door. matt opened his mouth and before he got a word out i was like, shut the fuck up matt. "i'll tell that you said a bad woooordd!" whatever. "daddddyyyyy!"
i got to the car and matt didn't say anything to dad. he was like "erin did you get some breakfast? you need to eat you know" i was like well if i didn't have a little shithead terrorizing me, i might've been able to! yeah so. we got to best buy while my dad went into compusa to get my grandmas harddrive. we walked up and saw the gates still down. there was some employees sitting around smoking, and finally when me and matt were within 5 feet of them, they scurried back inside and shut the door. no word whatsoever. not even a "we're not open yet." bastards. so we went to compusa, since it was about 20 minutes till best buy opened. well LOOKY HERE. it was open and they had all their games in stock. matt went over to his little game boy advance section, and i looked at the pc games. i saw everquest, it looked pretty good, but i realized it was like..a pay per play game. fuck that. went further back in the store and saw justin's favorites (return to castle wolfenstein, dark age of camelot). blew a raspberry at them ;D and i saw a game i'd seen on amazon and put on my wishlist. BLACK AND WHITE. yuuuus<3 so i bought it. matt got dragon ball z legend of goku for his game boy advance. turns out my game was 10 bucks cheaper than the listed price! :D yei! yadda yadda. went back to grandmas, hung around till it was time to go to the graduation party. went to the party, bitched about which road to take (turns out grandma was right and dad was wrong). walked up, shook hands with a cousin i hardly know. he was like "i remember you" as if i wanted to know or actually cared? and i think it's bullshit anyways cause i didn't remember him for crap. and this computer is making buzzy noises at me. goddamit. it goes away when i stand up to fix it and starts up again when i sit down. bitch.
aha anyways. hung around at the party for a while. i wasn't interested in their gfs-bought food. x_x so the guests started arriving. i realized my cousin was a popular bitch. i could tell by the girls that came to the party. 4 layers of makeup, a suprised/disdained look on their face all the time (shitty eyebrow jobs, they should have consulted mee ;D isnt that right manda). but DUUUUDE. one of his friends that came was like. whoa. x 10. anyways. me, my brother, and dad continued to be loners. we were the only ones at this whole empty table while the other ones filled up. lmfao. matt was coming down with something, and wasn't feeling good, so dad talked to grandma and decided to take me and matt home. hey, at least i got free m&m's and a pepsi. so we were walking towards the driveway and i feel the telltale sign of a bloody nose. so i think, maybe we can make it to the car and i can get my kleenexes out before it starts. oh no. HELL no. dad steers us toward HIS cousin to say goodbye and my nose just starts gushing. dad's cousin sees me and makes a mad dash for the house and brings out a couple napkins. lmfao. yeah. that was after it dripped on my hand and on my shirt. matt was being the loving supportive brother he always is, saying "you look weird. you got some on your chin." i was like THANKS A FUCKING LOT MATT. he just stood there and watched me have a bloody nose. so yeah. dad's cousin got me the napkins and said "thanks for coming" as if it would help the embarassment or something? we continued walking towards the driveway, and of course, my cousin and his hottie friends were standing in the way. and OF COURSE, my dad feels it necessary to give him some words of advice and shake his hand before we leave. then cousins spots me and asks "what happened?"
....
i hit myself in the face with one of your bigass football trophies, ya dumbass.
no, i didn't say that. but i wanted to. he was your typical preppy jock. but i was like "I GOT A BLOODY NOSE!" and he gave me a questioning look, but i waved him off with a bloodied hand and continued walking down the driveway to a 425 degree car. mm texas toast. o_0 anyways. got in the car. got my kleenexes. went home. washed up. drooled over my new game while dad spent another 5 hours fixing grandma's computer. dinner. after dinner, played game. while i was playing the game though (it's really cool so far, when i get home i'll get some screenshots up), matt's fever/cough/earache continued to get worse. eventually, dad and grandma decided to take him into the "clinic" (i dunno) cause his temperature was 104 f and was only rising. so here i am. left in an empty house except for my grandma's annoying shitzu? shietzu? whatever. dog named chynna. decided that it wasn't worth playing the game anymore since i'd just have to start over once i got home. and then i got on lovely dial-up aol and started typing away these ..several long paragraphs of my life.
what would i do without the internet
<3

yar. yesterday's post. cause i couldn't get on.
5/31/02
well, today was pretty eventful. it's more than i can say for how the rest of my summer days will be spent. but anyways. mom woke me up at 7. i then proceded to have a bloody nose. probably from the panic of my mom going through my books and papers beside my bed. (i write alot of personal stuff that comes to my mind before i go to sleep, poems, drawings, etc. and leave them at my bedside.) so i sat on top of the toilet, blotting at my nose, while watching my mother around the corner of my bathroom wall.
"don't worry, erin, i'm not looking at any of your personal stuff."
yeah, right. if you're not looking at it, how did you even know it was there?
then i hurried (well, tired to hurry) and packed up my stuff for grandmas house. (i forgot my shorts and sandals -_-). after being hollered at by every member of the family to "hurry up, we're leaving!" or "bye erin!!", i hopped in the car and was greeted by several more cheerful "god, you take so long to get ready in the morning!"s.
5 hours in the backseat of a cramped car.
1 dad who drives to nauseate.
1 brother who loves to argue.
1 extra hour of sleep? priceless.
i woke up because i heard my dad's fucking "fuzzbuster" (or whatever the hell those police detectors are called.)saying "vg2 alert! deeedoodeedoodeedoodeedooo!!!!" and my dad bitching about how he wanted some food and matt whining about how he couldn't get to the trunk where the snacks were cause i was in the way and asleep.
ha.
so i sat up and stuffed the whole box of nutrigrain bars in my dad's lap.he then proceded to eat 4 or 5 out of the...what, 10 in a box?
yeah, and of course matt, who'd claimed the front seat before i could, HAD to have something different than dad was. so he whined until i broke out the mini cooler and pacified him with an "expresse"; basically go-gurt for grown-ups. i was too nauseated by my dad's driving (crawl up someone's ass, slow down, speed up, slow down, speed up, pass, slow down, repeat.) to even think about food. by the time we got to grandma's (<3michigan<3)(<3 ann arbor<3)(<3university of michigan<3), i was starving. i think grandma was too, cause when we got there, we unloaded our stuff and she shoved us out the door for lunch. after that, dad and matt went off to MHNI and me and grandma went to coleman's. it was this really cool greenhouse/produce market/exotic food's store.i had a field day. rows and rows of cheese <3, foreign candy, weird chips, and basically FOOD! :D
went home, "enjoyed" 30 minutes of shitty dial-up AOL -gag- internet access, had insanely good spaghetti, watched detroit kick some colorado ASS (7-0, yaaay! blowout baybeeh!), and played the mcmullan ritual of scrabble. dad didn't participate, though; grandma is always having computer problems and dad was fixing them. someone or another, grandma's whole harddrive got fucked up and we had to go buy her a new one. o_0 anyways. back to scrabble. i drew and a and got to go first. i started with "bigot". matt put down "wiggle" 0_o wtf...yeah. then grandma put down "whore". lmfao. leave it up to a grandma. matt beat me (overall) by 8 points.grr. after it was all said and done, it was 11:30. dad still wasn't done with the computer (no internet for me ;/) otherwise, i'd have posted this yesterday. instead, here i am at 1:10 in the morning scribbling away while grandma reads some shit called "shipping news". half cousin's graduation party tomorrow. yey. well, at least there's my grandma's condo complmex's clubhouse's outdoor pool ..lol..to look forward to.
hopefully, it doesn't rain.
goodnight. goodmorning? whatever.