i think that picture speaks for itself.
o_0

hmm.
so. earlier, i went to the library for some "volunteen" stuff. it seems my mother is forcing child labor upon me. i'll be volunteering my time to help little kids read at the library. :D yey. actually. it does sound fun. i'm turning into (or already was?) a computer zombie. need to get sunlight. and stuff.
i'm going to my grandma's tomorrow. that should be interesting. i'll be stuck in a car with my brother for 6 hours. o_0 you do the math.
so uh. i guess he's going to some mhni thing. michigan headpain national institute? i forget what it stands for. yahr. my brother got mono in like...the 5th grade? and he's been having migranes ever since. and been on lots of pain medication. etcetera etcetera. and.,,.
hii? :D

YESYESYES@)!@(#*!)@(#*!@)#(*)!@*(#
i yam fr00t.

<3herbal essences<3

i had a dream last night. i was in school, i dunno what school cause i didn't recognize it, but yeah. i was in school and i saw katie walking down the hallway. i was ecstatic and i ran to her with open arms practically shouting "hiii katie!!". she saw me and said cooly "hey erin, what's up." it hurt. so i dropped my arms and stared at her, suprised that she didn't have the same reaction, and continued walking down the hallway.
that's all i remember of the dream. i wonder what it means.?

hai.
um. geez. need to post more often. it IS summer.
uh uh i'm going to my grandma's house (ann arbor) on friday. x_x long drive. ugugug. limited computer usage. even more ugugug. and i have to go to like..my 2nd cousin 15 times removeds' graduation party o_0 yei fun. uhm. what else. i've been a total zombie the past week. final fantasy 9. computer. final fantasy 9. computer. -passes out- i love it lol. i'm such a computer geek. -_- um um JESUS
i haven't posted in 3 days and this is all i can scrounge up? pfffft. uh..@!$(#@$* kira's comin to my house to pick me up on the 7th. we're going on a rooaddddh trip type thingy. white water rafting. AND KALAMAZOO BAYBEEEHH!!!!!! god i miss kalamazoo. and i'll see kirrahhhh and katieee and kieerstennn. dude. i miss them so much. katie said she'd take me to a dance club with her. w00p that will rock so much. i have yet to experience the joys of a dance club. i dunno. kira would prolly be mad at me if i went with her, cause she's not really a dance type person.

lmao, read this

check out the picture gallery in the fun section. :D

YUSSSS.!!@( first day of summer vacation!
i was watching mtv this morning and i saw cam'ron - oh boy. it's a really good song. you should download it.
(it's rap. alot of people don't like rap. they can go suck balls.) i think i'm gonna put it on a cd. <3
oh yeah. and netscape can go suck balls too. (this layout uses iframes, only i.e. can view it)

new layout=yey

btw, check out the songs/poetry section.
and, the guestbook still doesn't work. send me some links to good guestbook services.

hey y'all.
sorry for bein such a hoe yesterday, i was in a crappy mood for some reason.
anyways. today was the beginning of the exams. i had the health and civics exams today, which are both probably the easiest tests i'm going to have this whole week. i miss people from skool alreadddyyyy! -cry- especially...yeah. well. i can't say who it is anymore since people from school are beginning to infiltrate my website. i took lots of pictures yesterday. as soon as i get 'em developed i'll make a whole gallery. lots of fun. yeah. physical science and algebra exams tomorrow! eek. ummmn what else. OH YEAH. THIS WEEK IS MY LAST WEEK OF SKOOL)#(%*)%*$#(%*)$#(* and i don't even have to go on friday, cause the exams on friday are for 1st period and 5th period, which for me is art and study hall. yaii. and i might be going over to mandas house, and we might be able to get dave to drive his truck to skool and have manda bring her waterguns. and we could squirt people from skool. while in the back of his truck. yaii. but it prolly won't happen. but SPEAKING OF MANDA......she got a cam!!
have a looksee.
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she also wrote some nifty gothy poetry. i'll whip up a poetry section as soon as i can find some of my poetry or someone elses. manda didn't want her poetry to be lonely i guess. :D
and that's all folks!

dhgdown: i emailed you this, but you must not have received it yet. it was in reply to

I was going through my sent mail and found this. I decided I'd go investigate your site. Why am I still on your dawgs section? I'm not your friend.

-----Original Message-----
From: John Huenergardt [mailto:johnh@neo.rr.com]
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 10:25 PM
To: Erin The Great
Subject: RE: ...

well.. if you don't care to talk to me, nor console me when i may be upset about something you've done, then just forget about me. take me off your dawgs section if that's how you feel. i wont go to your site again. sorry.
erin thy great: i replied to that
dhgdown: mm. ive yet to receive it. sorry for bothering you.
erin thy great: i forget what it said, but i did reply
erin thy great: aww man
erin thy great: i still do want to be your friend
erin thy great: and i dont want you to be mad at me
dhgdown: ah.
erin thy great: :-\
erin thy great: so ..thas basically a no?
erin thy great: k well
erin thy great: bye then


alright john
if that's the way you want it
bye forever

hm. justin told me to update. so i guess i will.
o_0
uhh. i took alot of pictures on friday and saturday. i'll get them up here soon lol
but to hold you over untill then, here's one i particularly liked: click
teehee. unnnnf and what else. OH JA
REDWINGS BEAT THE AVALANCHE ON SATURDAY. <3
detroit all the way baby. ummgfgfgdf. i didn't tell y'all. but i got my first phone number from a boyyy! :F matt, the dood from school. i think i've talked about him before. and he's a senior too :D :D i feel the love <3
umm. msn people are tarded lol and..
i like vaniller coke <3

i talked to some people yesterday. (wow, i have some form of social life) one thing really bugged me when i was thinking over things that happened last night. he, (whom i will keep anonymous) thinks that i like..other people better than him. how is that possible?! agghh,, errghh,,!(#*@)$!
sure, i may talk to him more, but that's only because he's always online. i write about him more (i guess) because i talk to him more.
that means nothing.
____, you are a much more openly sensitive and emotional person than alot of guys i know, including ______. that's not to say i don't like him, though! but maybe that's because i don't know him as well as i thought. the reason i'm posting this is because i despise the fact that you feel that ______ is keeping you from talking to me or from expressing your feelings on my website. do not let assholes get in your way, period. no matter how nice a person you are. and expressing your feeligs is sooo not bitching. it may seem that way to a guy, but it is NOT bitching, dammit.
my website is designed for this type of thing. if expressing emotions = bitching, then a whole fucking lot of people should really hate me right now.
and ooh. this whole thing about ______ is really pissing me off. arrogant, egotistical bastards need to get a grip and realize that other people have feelings. the world is not their little game to fuck around with.

iunneven know why they invite me to be among their group, i seem to be like..an outsider type dealy that only makes comments every once in a while. they mostly talk about ddr tournaments. and i'm like. unnh. you want me here..? really? .perhaps its cause i'm on amy's buddy list for some strange reason, and its a mass buddy list invite. -shrug- i hate feeling like..a tard among tards. like a bigger tard than the rest of them? arhh..yeah. x_x anthrax <3

hahaha

the animal that best portrays your sexual appetite is:
gazelle
you know how the game is played and know how to play it. you will let them all chase your but a select few will get you. then you let them have their way with you.
Take the What
animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz

justin, you bitch.
i labeled it for all to see.
tralaaaaa
and here's my brother.
matt

FUCK YES!*@(#$&@#($*& -orgasm-


Which Woman of Beauty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.

so much for going to grandmas house.
this weekend has sucked so far. my sleepover with manda got canceled for no reason, because we aren't going to my grandmas house for mother's day. our car is about ready to die, and it definitley can't handle the 6 hours of driving it takes to get to ann arbor michigan. but my mom still wouldn't let me have manda over. she gave me some bullshit about how she and my dad are arguing and she didn't want manda to hear it. yeah. and the last day for seniors was on friday. :/ that sucked, cause matt was starting to turn into a really good friend of mine. ugh -_- i'm starting to become attached to the people here. i guess i'm over kalamazoo (lol, it sounds like i'm talking about a boyfriend or something)...i still miss kira and katie alot, but i realize that i never really appreciate something till i leave. because then i don't have it. and when you don't have it, you begin to see all the good things in that. i think i've risen above the situation and i'm now able to see that kalamazoo had so many downsides to it while i was there. i really just want to fast forward to college so i don't have to go through the heartbreak of moving again. when i move for college, i won't have my parents with me. it's gonna be scary as hell. and i don't know where the fuck i'm going. i've always wanted to go to university of michigan, but now that i've moved out of michigan i see so many other options! and i don't know what to do, really. all i know is i have to work really hard in high school so i can get some goddamn scholarships. it seems like my whole life my parents have made me feel guilty for taking any kind of money from them. they've always bitched about how they're "tight on money" and that kind of shit, and then they go out the next day and spend 200 bucks on landscaping. -shakes head- speaking of bitching, i guess i've kinda run off my path.
skool! :D
chris. wooohhhhh boy. if that guy looks at me one more time with those beautiful brown eyes of his, i'll swoon. there's a few other guys i would like to discuss, but some people (coughmandacough) would read this and make fun of me. so i'll keep quiet for now.
oh yeah. matt (not my brother, but the senior from my school) has gotten me on to a really good band, called bad religion. you should download some songs by them. my favorites so far are epiphany and sorrow.
lmao...for some reason i have this false sense of accomplishment today.
i woke up at about..9 or 10. i lounged around then watched the matrix. i talked to my parents for awhile, had breakfast (hahaha, 1 english muffin = breakfast), and went up to my room where i spent an hour drawing this. its the best drawing of an open rose i've ever done in my entire life. i copied (read: did not trace) this. then i got dressed, blablbblablablablablbah and went to kmart where i got some new nailpolish <3 then i mixed my own color, its this really pretty shimmery shade of purple and green. <3 <3 then i copied this pedicure routine in my new cosmogirl magazine and my feet feel reeeaallly good and i have pretty toenails.
yeah, that's where my feeling of accomplishment came from. erin's a tard <3
i think tomorrow when i take a shower (skank) and shave my legs i'll whip out the fake tanny lotion and try that one again. it didn't work too well last year when i tried it. maybe i'll have better luck tomorrow. fuck, i'm pale. eh. screw it. i'll stay pale and wear jeans for the rest of the school year. shorts suck balls anyways.
macaroni and cheese<3

Your Existing Situation
Readily participates in things that provide excitement or stimulation. Wants to feel exhilarated.


Your Stress Sources
The existing situation is disagreeable. Feels lonely and uncertain as she has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and wants to stand out from the rank and file. This sense of isolation magnifies the need into a compelling urge, all the more upsetting to her self-sufficiency because of the restraint she normally imposes on herself. Since she wants to demonstrate the unique quality of her own character, she tries to suppress this need for others and affects an attitude of unconcerned self-reliance to conceal her fear of inadequacy, treating those who criticize her behavior with contempt. However, beneath this assumption of indifference she really longs for the approval and esteem of others.


Your Restrained Characteristics
Willing to participate and to allow herself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension.
Believes that she is not receiving her share--that she is neither properly understood nor adequately appreciated. Feels that she is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave her without any sense of emotional involvement.




Your Desired Objective
Considers the existing circumstances disagreeable and over-demanding. Refuses to allow anything to influence her point of view.


Your Actual Problem
Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety, emptiness, and an unadmitted self-contempt. Her refusal to admit this leads to her adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude.


Your Actual Problem #2
The need for esteem--for the chance to play some outstanding part and make a name for herself--has become imperative. She reacts by insisting on being the center of attention, and refuses to play an impersonal or minor role.

ships in the dark eh? very poetic..i don't get it. lmao..ANYWAYSSSS
dood0ot0odt today was pretty ok. i went to school and i dropped by the cafeteria and mrs. robertson (the art teacher) was putting up the art show. its basically all of art 1 and art 2's best artwork. she puts something of everyones in it, even the crappy students hahaha. thats mean but ,eh. i'm in art 1. some of the teachers in our school vote for best of show and 1st, 2nd, and 3rd places for all of the artwork. i don't think it's fair to include both classes in the same..uh..judging? cause like..art 2 is definitley going to be better, because they have more experience! bleh, i dunno. all i can do is hope. but of all people, mrs. brunner, evil study hall monitor, came up to me in study hall (lol obviously) and commented that she had seen my artwork in the show and said it was really good. yey<3
ummnnn what else. i have a civics test tomorrow. -_- and exams start the week after next.
yeah i was feeling pretty crappy by 7th period, even though the whole day before that was really fun and happy and all that good shit. i dunno why, maybe it was cause i saw a sad song on mtv in algebra class (our teacher is lazy and types on the computer all day, doing god knows what. we've caught him looking at his personal collection of britney spears pictures quite a few times. i'm dead serious.) and i haven't been depressed for awhile? the depression followed me home. i slept on our new seat and a half thingy until 5, had dinner (eeww fish), and went to the ymca. i'm feeling better now. something aboot that excersize, maybe mom is right. O_O and. i still smell like chlorine, dammit. anti-chlorine smell shampoos are rip -offs, don't buy them. -mumble-
redwings lost to the blues on tuesday.
$(*@#_$*@#$ dammit. they better win their game today.
und. i like ice cream
<3

ug ug ug.
today rained unmercifully upon us all.
went to school, blablabla all that other good crap. at 1 o'clock mom came and picked me up to go to the allergist. dun dun duuun.
x_x i got there and my weight and height measured. my mother, obviously never missing a beat when it isn't necessary, saw my weight and ogled at me. ugh. nice constructive criticism, mom.
so we talked with the nurse-y thingy for awhile then she had me lay down on this thingy and she put a buncha drops of allergy-inducing things on me and then proceded to prick my skin so the stuff would get underneath it. OWWWWWW. i uh..had to think make believe it was uh...ahahahahhaah i'll let your imagination run wild on that one, cause i definitley can't say it here. teehee.
now i have a bunch of mosquito-bite-looking thingys on my back. only like...4 now since its been like 5 hours since i was at the allergist. so i'm allergic to hamsters, rabbits, oak and birch trees, and ragweed the most. lmao. SUCKS TO BE ME. the doctor lady sent me home with a nasal spray and zyrtec and allegra. WOOOOOHH PRESCRIPTION DRUGS. hah. just kidding. AND THEN WHEN I GOT HOME(!#*$&(#!! my parents forced labor upon me and made me help dig holes for my mother's shrubbery.
teehee. i particularly liked the laurels on the china boy. (we really did plant china boys and china girls. lol. they're like..holly bush type thingys) it was a PAIN IN THY ASS. 7 freaking holes. then we had to smush in the dirt, then we had to water 'em, bla bla BLAHHH#(*$@(#$8. my life is such pain. child labor -cry- all my brother had to do was mow the lawn in the forking rider mower. -glares at brother in the next room, whom is playing ff9- hm. but overall i think it was a good day.
:D

lyin in my bed
thinkin of you
i realize nothing is new
you say you love me
but one self says
i say you're lying
nothing has changed

do0t0t00d0t brownie points for the person who identifies the song and singer. ;D

anyways...not much has been going on. i showed my mom and dad my english essay and they thought it was really good. my mom normally doesn't ask my dad to read my english stuff, but this time she did? so i guess its good? a note to all you college peeps: you may write essays better than that everyday, but you must remember i am a mere 14 year old.
DUDE
my mom says manda can't come over because we're going to my grandma's for mother's day and we're leaving early saturday morning. SUCKAGE(*)@#*$)@(*#$)@(#*$)@(#$*)@#(*$ no computer for me at all. -cry- well anywhoos. it's past my bedtime, lol
goodnight kiddies <3

Your Existing Situation
Orderly, methodical, and self-contained. Needs the respect, recognition, and understanding of those close to him.
(wtf? i chose female...)

Your Stress Sources
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and of separation from others. Believes that life still has far more to offer and that she may miss her share of experiences if she fails to make the best use of every opportunity. She therefore pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity and commits herself deeply and readily. Feels herself to be completely competent in any field in which she engages, and can sometimes be considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Very exacting in the standards she applies to her choice of a partner and seeking a rather unrealistic perfection in her sex life.
(hahahahahaha)

Your Desired Objective
Preoccupied with things of an intensely exciting nature, whether erotically stimulating or otherwise. Wants to be regarded as an exciting and interesting personality with an altogether charming and impressive influence on others. Uses tactics skillfully so as to avoid endangering her chances of success or undermining others' confidence in herself.

Your Actual Problem
The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity.

Your Actual Problem #2
Fights against restriction or limitation, and insists on developing freely as a result of her own efforts.

today was pretty cool. i woke up at about 10 o'clock, then i rolled around in bed falling in and out of sleep for awhile. i finished my "porn" (justin, i am being sarcastic...). by the time i got out of bed and brushed my teeth and all that good junk it was about 1:30. dad bought me macaroni <3 i had a whole box for lunch. lmao. I WAS HUNGRY DAMMIT. and while i was eating my lovely macaroni, redwings were kicking some st. louis butt. :D :D they won 3 to 2. yeehaww. redwings are going all the way, baby. stanley cupppppp w00h. and speaking of hockey and that sort of thing, i will take this moment to tease adam and all of his hockey crazed friends by saying "NA NA NA NA NA NAAAAHHH REDWINGS ARE BETTER THAN YOUUUU ARE!!".
thank you.
in other news...erin had burritos for dinner. :]

english essay
fwee <3

You are a lover of royalty and fantasy and probably express this artistically, musically, or in writing, or absorb yourself in works related to it. You are gifted with a beautiful intellect and a wonderful imagination and creative spirit!
Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.

yayyy new link button
:D

ooh hoooobooy
erin made some cartoons cause she was bored in class <3 yay fun
cartoon number one
i dunno how fast your internet connection is, but fyi; that link is to the wholleeeee image. its quite big, so i cut it into 2 pieces for you lesser priveleged internet users <3
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anddd heres the second one :D
cartoon number 2
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